Love(pain)

       Alive in the past
Remembering one I love, still alive but
      no longer loving me.
But love is forever? Forever a lie
          For true love I would die
      For my life means NOTHING to me
what good is one person alone in this world
 Self inflicting pain... pity.. misery...
  Its easier then doing something about it!
    To bitch and moan and want to die...
   I admit it! But still I lay and wait
       I love her, she doesnt me...
     Anymore(?)... was it ever true?
  Machines give me purpose now,
 But I cannot even keep them! Everything
      Failure Everything Ends.
     Pointless to me  Pointless.
   Old and decrepid yet younger then
       some who live and smile.
    Twould be nice if I could give them
     my life for I am wasting it myself.
     I love(d?) her, she forgot me,
 The time to exist is ending...